In my youth I could remember everything. I remembered conversations I had with people verbatim. I could remember what I wore on certain monumental occasions or how something smelled or felt during numerous random moments of my childhood. This is only interesting to me now at the ripe, old age of thirty-four because I suddenly feel like I can't remember anything. It is with great sadness that I admit the loss of my steel-trap memory. I've thought long and hard about this loss too. I've examined the problem from many different angles and listed all possible causes.
The most obvious cause is motherhood. When you have conversations with children all day and your biggest problems to solve involve determining who didn't flush the toilet, I think brain cells flee the monotony as quickly as they can. In short, becoming a mom has caused some of my memory to turn to mush.
A second possible cause for this lapse in memory is related to motherhood as well. As our family has grown, so has the number of people I am responsible for. And the number of shoes. And the number of backpacks. And the number of clean pairs of underwear. And the number of schedules. And the number of.... What was I saying? In my prior life, I was only responsible for myself. Life was simplistic. Then I added a spouse. It took time, but I adjusted to telling him where his things were because he has obviously been incapable of remembering things his whole life. As life became more complicated and the number of charges began multiplying, my memory began to fail me more and more. My old tricks were no longer working. I had never been one to really use a calendar or make to-do lists. I had always been able to file that data in my mind and recall it easily later when needed. As is obvious by the multitude of conflicting scheduled events recently, I most certainly need a calendar and possibly a personal assistant!
And just to illustrate my point further, I've quite literally forgotten the point to this little ramble in just the time it has taken me to write it!
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